about me & the journal entries.

hey.

welcome to my journal! every entry is copied from my actual handwritten diaries, so you’ll be reading the raw, authentic cadence and tone of my stream of consciousness.

the story of escaping a traumatized, suppressed childhood is so common that it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. adulthood hits and people like me are sent into a world that feels like home in a disturbing way —rigid, oppressive, relentless—designed to break the most vulnerable. i’ve been through spaces that are wildly diverse (in a multitude of ways), riding the peaks, crashing through the lows, wandering the in-betweens, and observing the outliers.

there’s so much to say, so much i feel, and now i can barely hold it all together. and i don't want to. that’s why i’ve started writing again. writing has reclaimed its rightful place as the thing that truly makes me feel alive. where the verbal expression of my experiences often fails to represent me accurately, the writing holds my truth up to the light. this frees me from the burden of carrying everything alone. i want to share my journals with you because it’s made me feel better to be more free. maybe it can do the same for you or someone you know.

my therapy, my communities—these journals serve them foremost. but, the deepest, truest form of self-love is laying my chaos, my thoughts, my raw emotions, onto paper. that’s where i find my power.

i’m endlessly curious. i make trouble for my own heart (in the best way). i love finding tiny moments of light in the darkness, turning pain into something real. i’m a creator, a jokester, a seeker of truths in the shadows.