i quit loving myself
“push, pull, i’m the boss, do this, because i said so,
your fault, clean it up, i don’t care, i’m tired of you now...”
u don't miss him u miss u
"the sweet thing about breaking my own heart’s that it hasn't made me up on love and never will."
time, trauma & becoming
“the past houses my present body's consciousness, halting it as the river of time rushes and crashes by me."
what else do you want from me, my soul?
"If caviar were a caveat to chaos, perhaps I wouldn’t have had to choose between a home and my autonomy at 19 years old."
respire, resist, rosemary
“Despite the distance now between my mother and I and our mothers before us, we all share this particular sorrow in a near identical manner.”
read me when you need reminding of who i am (part iii of iii)
“When I think of how I got to where I am, I have to think of all of the mothers that came before me.”
read me when you need reminding of who i am (part ii of iii)
“She used me as a lightbulb of personality and achievement to make life brighter—shinier.”
read me when you need reminding of who i am (part i of iii)
“I was too rigid on the soft thing that is me.”
fancy seeing you here.
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